Watching my dogs laze about made me think that it would be nice to live their lives, and then I realized that, my life isn't that much different from theirs at the moment.
I sleep, get people to make me food, and do my best to take care of myself. My sister told me that all I need now is a food bowl with my name on it. Thanks for that.
I've got to make light where I can, personally I think that little anecdote up there is kind of humorous and people that aren't chronically ill are probably thinking that it would be nice to spend their time like I just said I do. But they are only seeing that part.
What I haven't mentioned is that the reason my life seems so relaxing and ideal is because I don't have the energy to do much of anything else. Even things that I really want to do.
This past few days was Fan X, a local Comic Convention here in SLC that takes place in January and I had to miss it. I would have loved to go, I love these conventions, seeing the costumes and interacting with other fans.
There were two reasons I could not go, though. The first being that due to people deciding not to vaccinate their children there has been a measles outbreak in my state. Measles and being on immunosuppressants don't mix. So thanks all you anti vaxers for being unaware of how your choices effect everyone else.
Secondly, even if there hadn't been a measles outbreak I wouldn't have been able to go because I did not have the energy to get out of bed at all this past week. I'm pretty sure that my kidneys are failing again. I have all of the symptoms. I tried to get in contact with my rhuematologist but only managed to get their less than stellar answering service who tells me I have to call back when I tell them I want to leave a message, because taking messages isn't something that answering services are supposed to do or anything.
Hopefully soon I will be able to get my infusions going again so that I can start feeling better. But until then, I will live like my puppies and only worry about sleeping and taking care of myself.
Thanks for reading this ramble.