In Sickness and in Health

In Sickness and in Health

The above link goes to an article that talks about how men are more likely to divorce or dump their spouse who gets sick than a woman partner. Really, there's only a six percent difference between men and women who leave their sick spouses so it's not that much of a difference, but it is still enough to make me sad.

I know that not everyone out there has the strength to handle having an ill spouse; hell, not everyone out there has the strength to handle getting sick themselves, but you'd hope that the person you chose to spend your life with would stick with you no matter what.

It's very disheartening to learn things like this even though I don't have a significant other. It kind of reinforces some of the thoughts that I already think to myself when it comes to dating or relationships. I don't want to burden someone with the heavy medical baggage that I carry and it doesn't matter how often I tell myself in my head that the right person won't care, it's still enough to get me to push people away before I get into a position to be hurt.

Yoga vs Me

Oh man, I made the mistake of going to a yoga class with my mother last night. Cue me sleeping in to 1:00pm today and waking up so stiff and painful that I can hardly move. Arthritis and yoga do not mix. I snap, crackled, and popped through as many of the poses as I could but downward dog is just not my friend. Not to mention lung and connective tissue problems makes it really hard to breath during said stretches. Let's not even start on attempting to balance.
It was an experience for sure.

Next time, I will bring a chair so that I can modify the poses to be easier for me to handle.
If you would like to try it, here is a link to a lady who specializes in yoga for arthritis and she has instructional videos on youtube!
https://www.youtube.com/user/KimMcNeilYoga



PS sorry for the sporadic updates.

Letting Go

I know it's been a while since I last posted. Just know that for that time I didn't need to write down my thoughts. I just didn't have much to say. Health wise, the last year has been up and down but I've made it through to sit before you today and type some thoughts down for you to read.

This past almost year has led me to a conclusion. I really want to let go of the person I used to be because all that is doing is causing me grief emotionally and physically. I need to realize that I can't be the things I used to be and my life needs to change if I am ever going to get to a stable place.

But that stubborn girl just keeps clinging to me, haunting me like a ghost that needs to be laid to rest. Laying her to rest is just what I plan to do. I want to make a poppet of the girl I used to be and put her to rest; this way, the new me can rise from the ashes and reach her full potential. I know that I will still have some vestiges from my past self, because my new self will have been born from her, but maybe, just maybe, it will help me let go.